critically acclaimed

how a bar singer can cure depression and cause alcoholism in young adults

no real intention to post a significant amount of material tonight but hey i felt the need to ramble ramble ramble for a while. last week was kind of rough on me and my psyche but we are back on speaking terms and the functional alcholic returned in full form yesterday evening because of none other than Mr. Pat McCurdy. i'll be posting the oh so awesome pick with the Patster in moments following the rant. in all my years of college i have drank massive amounts of alcohol and been in many a bar but i never seem to enjoy them as much as being at a bar when Pat is playing. for those of you who don't know who he is well shame on you. He is a bar singer from the great state of Wisconsin of which i have been a life long member and he plays songs that we can all relate to including "I Wanna Ruin My Life," "Camping with Some Lesbians," and the oh-so-amazingly popular "Sex and Beer." There is something about his shows that are always fun and a blast to partake in. the guys isn't the most talented in the world and he isn't the most creative. but whenever i stumble out of a Pat show i know i experienced something that is unique to my fair state. it's a community and it's a family. a very drunk rowdy family but a one none the less. and because of Pat i think i can hopefully cure this rampant lack of motivation and bad case of senioritis that is creep creep creeping into my cerebrum.

i had a lot of conversations last week about how burned out i was as a student at my young age. my brain and my personality can only take so much responsibility so many semesters in a row. it's not like i don't want to be the age that i am and do what i am doing. i just don't have the cojones to stomach it all right now. i am suffering from my all time unbelievably classic case of overachiever syndrome along with my side case of slackeritis. i made all that up but basically i did way too much in too short of a time but if i didn't do that then i wouldn't be here where i am right now but i don't know if i want to be here. ok that was a long sentence but i had a rhythm or something like that. but because i have to buck up and finish out my last semester i have to tough through and do senseless work for the rest of the semester that i don't care about in the least. you know what makes this hard to stomach right now i can't drink as much as i used to. i used to be able to go three-four days in a row of going out and getting my stuff done still. but now i don't care about the things i am doing and i can't go out as much anymore. so it is a lose lose Catch 22 situation type shit right now.

but i know that things are going to be ok because this feeling is only because i am sick of being in Green Bay at the moment. i get to the point where i need a new step in my life. just like when i need new music, clothes, or hair colors i need change. i like change and now is the time for some change. i have been doing the same things over and over again and i am done with that. here are some of the highlights for me in the coming months.
1. UW-La Crosse grad school interview (awesome)
2. Going to Jamaica for Spring Break (didn't tell mom yet)
3. Graduation
4. Moving to wherever i am going to move for Grad School
stay tuned. peace.

posted by critically acclaimed @ 10:53 PM